[one year ago] strength is what we gain / from the madness we survive :or: having a very public nervous breakdown

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[originally published one year ago today, January 20, 2017…later that day I checked into a residential mental health facility for one week]

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strength is what we gain / from the madness we survive :or: having a very public nervous breakdown

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[originally published one year ago today, January 20, 2017…later that day I checked into a residential mental health facility for one week]

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Life Savers

These are my six life savers
I take them each night
without shame
without fear of judgement
out in the open
not hidden in the bathroom
or the closet
two bring me sleep
two bring me alive
two bring me through
all six allow me to breathe
day in and day out

I supplement these life savers
with meditation
and mindfulness
with yoga
and essential oils
with nature and toes in dirt
with lungs filled with fresh crisp air
with giggles of my children
and kisses from my love
with words that bleed
from my fingertips to the page
these are my six life savers

#noshame #mytruth #thestruggleisreal #depression #anxiety #grief #insomnia #ptsd #mooddisorder #bipolar #breathe #everydamnday #transparent #authentic #connection

yesterday i failed…today, a slight perspective change

I wrote this yesterday, after an especially emotionally difficult week, weekend, day. I was far far far down the rabbit hole. My train had¬†derailed. This grief and mourning and living and thriving thing….it’s all shit. And it’s not for the faint of heart. None of it.

I wasn’t going to share this here, for all to see. Pity party, table for one please. But I shared my words with some of my tribe, and something beautiful and amazing and inspiring happened. There was no pity. There was no judgment. There was acceptance, and love, and space, and encouragement, and HOLY SHIT YES I FEEL THAT TOO!¬†And THAT, my friends, is the point. Connection, it’s soul-saving. It is.

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